This is Very Hard
You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me and I need you. I know things aren’t the best right now. I am sorry that this is very hard. I want you to know that I love you and I won’t leave you scarred. You’ve been through enough people hurting you and I don’t want you to shove me away. You’re all I have and all I will ever need nothing is above you. My everything, I will always keep my promises to you. Your love makes me so incredibly happy and your heart is as pure as a dove. I just have to tell you, no matter what happens I will still love you. I cried tonight, I sobbed into my pillow for how much love I have for you. I am so scared of this, I have never felt this way before and I’m terrified. Terrified of what my heart says and what my mind will scream, justified is what my feelings are. But, if justified why do they feel so wrong? Weak, is what I am. You don’t understand how hard it is to fake being strong. My mind is filled with these thoughts, overthinking every situation I am in. Easy to break, oversensitive and difficult. The ice you walk on is thin. I need you, but holding you back from being happy feels worse than any fight. --Caralee Milbourn
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I am Sorry for Myself
I trusted someone and of course it backfired for myself by wasting my own time trying to build a friendship with a liar Knowing it wouldn’t work and failing like I predicted Perfect Caralee Milbourn
I miss you so much. I know, I miss you too. I am really sorry. Don't be, it's not your fault. I feel like it is, what're we gonna do? We'll figure it out. How? I don't know. Oh. I love you. I love you too. Call me? I can in a little bit. Okay. Please don't leave me. I will never leave you, I promise. Thank you for loving me, I don't know what I would do without you. Of course, you give me everything I could ever want. I trust you, with everything. Can I see you today? Yes, what time? I don't know yet. Okay, let me know. I will, I love you. I love you too. Come Over. Okay, see you soon. I don't want to fight with you. I don't want to fight with you either. We fight all the time. No, we don't, only sometimes. It's not good. I know, I'm sorry. It's not your fault it's mine; I ruin everything. No you don't. I don't make you happy anymore. Yes, you do. You make me happy every single day. Not anymore. Yes, you do. I never want to lose you, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me You're the best thing that's ever happened to me too. You'll never lose me, I promise. You promise? I promise. Thank you, you really mean everything to me. You mean more than everything to me, I really mean it. I mean it too. I only want you. I only want you too, I'm sorry I get scared. Don't be, it's okay, I mean it. Thank you for loving me. Of course, no matter what. No matter what? No matter what. You're my person. You're my person too. I really want to stay with you. Hey, we got this, I promise. You think so? Baby, I know we can get through anything. Anything? Anything at all, my love. You
Are an amazing Listener always showing Me that you care about me And I can always put trust into you You Are a shitty Father who doesn't Want anything other than To thrive off of hurting others You Are toxic to My life always Stepping onto me At the worst of times |
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